Judgement day... or not.

Hey y'all!
Always wondered what you sweet kind buddies thought of me.. Whether you guys think as highly of me as I do of you..
And please DO NOT be afraid to be honest.. It's only me, your sweet unviolent loving friend! And no, I will NOT cause anyone extreme physical pain due to brutally harsh lying on their part.. ur safe for the first five days,suckers.. lol jk

You met me. You know me. Now judge me.
By clicking here to those who haven't figured it out *ahem*

Feel the LURVE baby!

I just realised something, you know, bout... *winces* love. Yea, the taboo topic for me..
I'm really starting to think that that elusive thing we call love has escaped my grasp.. and instead I caught god-knows-what which looked to me like what I had imagined love to. *Scream! Inhale. Scream! Inhale.* Yes.. that means I have never been. In love. Before. Ever. Period. I know! It's like wth?! *screams in horror* But sadly it's true.
I knew. Cuando yo veo Kinna, yo se que true amor looked como. (I already look like a Spanish babe, but heck I've gotta do something bout my conversing..) Although I admit, I've never had the need to.. usually skipped the chatting part to.. you know.. the "better parts", lol.. *crimson blush* (And no snide remarks like "how to see crimson on your face" you yellows..) " wahahakakaa.. hahaaa.. haha. =) ... ah... =I... hu.. =( huhu..

huhuhu.. I really am starting to believe that I deceived myself into diving headfirst into that hellavu whirlpool of a thing which is more commonly known as a relationship. Its sad. I'm still hoping I'm wrong.
I'm standing here still drenched from that experience. The water's dripping everywhere. But it does help that I look like a Baywatch babe.. lol, kiddin!

But I've gotta shoutout to all those who helped me come to this realisation even though it has caused that tall confident me to go hide in the bushes.. (And no, Owen didn't pull me in.. not this time anyway)
1st. Kinna. Terima kasih for letting me know what real love looks like and that it exists, pure genuine love.
2nd. Kelly. Thanks for giving me great company and making me think. And especially for letting me bully you. (No need for a bf anymore..)
3rd. Gisela. Toe che for making me laugh with your quirky singaporean ways.. (I know it has nothing to do with my post.. just for fun so Gis kembang sampai comelllll *cubit pipi Gis*)
4th. Shantini. Nandri for listening when noone was. And helping me sort out my already alphabetically ordered mind and confused feelings. And having a great sense of humour( laughing at all my jokes =D)
5th. Owen. Gracias for everything. ... Now pull me in the bushes already...

Kinna cantik!

Dear Kinna,

I didn't noe wat to say. And when that someone leaves, i'd rather be alone. Figured u'd be the same. I guessed wrong.

Kell wanted to take a pic of you today. And i did. With my eyes.
Even though you had that usual smile plastered on your face, we could tell by your eyes that you were sad. I mean even Kell perasan that you were down (and she wakes up late & comes half way thru school, and the other half is spent trying to keep her lazy eyelids open..) You were constantly searching with your eyes. Constantly distracted, looking out for him. It was beautiful though. I know it sounds weird.
But you looked inexplicably sadly beautiful.

Anyway, hope you cheer up.

Take care.

And don't forget we're here for you gurl!!!
Yes.. even kelly..